Life has never been fair to me. Why?

Why do I have to stay strong until today when i hurt alot in life?

Why it's always me that sacrifice alot while someone else is enjoying life with friends?

I kept. I shut. I followed. I do whatever I has to.

Always obey on what you instructed me to. But when it comes to what I want, why don't you fucking let me to. Not even once you ever let me. I did still remember that you don't fucking allow me to go to my Primary 5 camp. I listened. I didn't went. But when it comes to her, you jolly well let her.

How about my Secondary 3 camp? You had the doubt in you of whether you want to let me go. I did go but then again you're half-heartedly let me go. I don't want to drag any further but it just seems that you don't fucking trust me.

Where did i go wrong? Or is it just you that fucking don't trust me?

Yes, trust! But why the trust isn't there? I'm more of a 2 years old kid instead.

In terms of saying that you care more of me or maybe I'm your first daughter afraid of any bad happen, it's all LIES. Shit laa sia!

Still I'm your daughter too. I'm a human that have feelings too.

How about the youngest? I don't even manage to go to any birthday chalet/BBQ pit when I was 15. Why you let her? Its obvious that you love pick.

Let me say this for the last time, I'm not going to be a good example setter to the younger ones anymore nor follow to whatever your decision is okay? I cry all my life because of this fucking issue. It hurts seriously. And this is also part of my reason why I ran over to KL. Damn. You making me hate you even more everyday. I'm spoilt and been a very bad girl is all because of you. Thanks to you. Fuck life and fuck YOU!