Wednesday, April 27, 2011 10:00 AM
Getting into a relationship is just a temporary thing in life.
I'm sorry but i'm just not ready yet.
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I'm not pretending. Just don't want to have another heart broken.
Thursday, April 21, 2011 10:23 PM
yesterday was awesome with Zul Azhar, unplanned meet up kan?
well, he loves to surprise me everywhere, everytime.
honestly, i never had such a great guy like him. he never fail to cheer me up when im down or too tired from work. the feeling i never had before. you almost make me down to tears. am speechless when saw you at the front gate of my work place. see this Zul;
YOU'RE THE BEST AMONG THE REST!
to my bbygirl: please dont hurt your own heart okay. i love you thats why i care.
go for your goal and forget about the past. promise?
and mothers' day coming and i dont know what should i get for my mum.
plan A: bring her to USS
plan B: bring her out to eat lunch/dinner
okay, nights earthling!
Labels: gwe cinta loe
Tuesday, April 19, 2011 2:44 PM
fuck work!
i am so fucking angry right now. i honestly can’t remember the last time i was this furious with someone that love to interrupt with what i'm doing for so deeply. she simply cant see me sitting infront of the computer and not going down to the production floor. i'm infront the computer simply because i have something to do. not jolly well let time pass. stupid arsehole, mother fucker. get a life, fuck! i don’t think i’ve ever called a friend a nabey cheebai straight to her face before. i did today.
Saturday, April 16, 2011 12:31 AM
im starting to hate you. sorry but don't blame me. just look at how you been treating me. going to give you more space now.
Labels: fuck
Thursday, April 14, 2011 4:05 PM
yesterday was the greatest day i had.
was so surprise to see him just outside of my house.
so sweet of you dearest, you came all the way down from Pasir Ris just to send me to work.
thats quite a long journey. and you told me white lie just to made my day.
i really thought you were sending your mum to work.
like usual, you never fail to make me smile. seriously.
and bby, i aint mad at you. i was only too tired at work.
nobody going to love me better or take me higher.
nobody ever make me feel this way. i must stick with you forever.
you know how to appreciate me. and now, aint nothing else i can need.
i want you to know that you're the only one for me.
coz you bring out the best in me, like no else can do.
iloveyou&onlyyou,bby.
&&&&&
Happy 43rd Birthday to my dearest Mummy;
HARIANI HASHIM!
i love you always and no one could ever replace you.
you're the best among the rest.
you have always be my sweetheart coz no matter how sick you are, you still cook for us dinner. i love you mummy.
Labels: you're the fucking best
Monday, April 11, 2011 10:51 PM
i hate it when times i need that someone the most but he/she isn't there. aku rinnddduu kau la bodoh. urghh! i feel so lonely now. i wanna go somewhere far away. bye taikss!
i dont even know who is he when we're studying in the same college but i knew his circle of friends. yet he knew me and my circle of friends. hahah. he did mention that one of my friend is the mata sehh, the other one ex boyfriend was from track and field. yeah, he knew. so he used to stalk me at school. NOT. haha. he said he knew me coz everytime when his friends saw me with my friends in the cafeteria they were all like "Ehh, Aishah. Aishah." not saying that im somebody laa. but i knew a few of his friends. like Nel, Haziq, Fahmi and Aziz. knew them pon from my gf; Fadhlin Sakina.
and i actually didnt realised that we ever board the same bus to school. he said i was standing right infront of him. you know me, whenever there's a lot of typical malay at wherever place i go i will make those typical-malas-nak-tengok-kau face. haha. so yeahh, there's alot typical malay guy. so i dont give a fuck looking at any of them. he remembered that i was wearing grey colour skirt with white polo tee and that time my hair was perm shoulder length. like wth. how the hell he remember? the school is big, and the school is crowded with alot of typical students.
like, ouhh okay. -_-"
and i start to know him from facebook chat. that was right after afew days i broke off with that mthrfckr. so the conversation was like,
He: Hello Aishah!
Me: Hey. (:
He: How are you?
Me: I'm fine thank you. Yourself?
He: Doing fine too. What are you doing?
Me: Nahh, nothing much. Just chatting and watching tv. Yourself?
He: Okay. Im at work. Can you like accompany me tonight? Like chatting or on the phone.
then suddenly, the internet connection lost.
so i went off to bed and sleep. haha. and we manage to get back the next day and he ask for my number with his trick la. standard la guys and their pick up lines. so yeah from there we get to know each other. at first i was afraid and i did say to him that im not ready for any relationship but we can be friends and not more than that.
so today mark the 1 month 3 weeks knowing each other. i feel blessed when i found him in my life. even though he a year younger but still i think he far better than all my exes. he thinks maturely, he knows what is right and what is wrong. he never fail to make me smile even when im down or stress up with alot of things running in my mind. he's always there when i need someone. he took care of me well. and yes, i have to admit this i've fallen for him. he love me for who and what i am. he accept me even he knows everything about my bad past. sometimes i feel that i don't deserve him coz he's so good to me. all thanks to Allah that i found him. Amin.
Saturday, April 9, 2011 9:31 AM
like again, i had to drag my feet to work. urghh. i don't want to work on saturdays pretty pleeaasseee. and it's been coming to a week that i didn't get to meet up with him. i miss you laa bodoh. can't wait to meet you like real soon. aww~ ):
i love this awesome man. this guy that i've fallen for is far more better than my ex. why? simply because he's more way gentleman than my ex. even though he's younger than my ex but he's more mature than my ex. he knows to think well unlike him, all he wanted is to have fun. being selfish, satisfied his need. but what happen to me? he don't fucking care what i want. okay forget about that jerk. no wonder why your 6 years ex left you unspoken. everything done. ouhh, i wish that you weren't one of my ex. all i could say now is, i wish you best of luck for your next relationship. (: no comment.
random; i learnt that in life you don't ever date with someone when you know that you've not gotten over your ex. its just so unfair for the other party when he/she is just a rebound. i'm not saying that you can't date that person right after you've got your heart broken by your ex, but please don't confuse yourself with your feelings. and yes, not saying anyone in particular.
Labels: please don't go far away.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011 8:16 PM
Life has never been fair to me. Why?
Why do I have to stay strong until today when i hurt alot in life?
Why it's always me that sacrifice alot while someone else is enjoying life with friends?
I kept. I shut. I followed. I do whatever I has to.
Always obey on what you instructed me to. But when it comes to what I want, why don't you fucking let me to. Not even once you ever let me. I did still remember that you don't fucking allow me to go to my Primary 5 camp. I listened. I didn't went. But when it comes to her, you jolly well let her.
How about my Secondary 3 camp? You had the doubt in you of whether you want to let me go. I did go but then again you're half-heartedly let me go. I don't want to drag any further but it just seems that you don't fucking trust me.
Where did i go wrong? Or is it just you that fucking don't trust me?
Yes, trust! But why the trust isn't there? I'm more of a 2 years old kid instead.
In terms of saying that you care more of me or maybe I'm your first daughter afraid of any bad happen, it's all LIES. Shit laa sia!
Still I'm your daughter too. I'm a human that have feelings too.
How about the youngest? I don't even manage to go to any birthday chalet/BBQ pit when I was 15. Why you let her? Its obvious that you love pick.
Let me say this for the last time, I'm not going to be a good example setter to the younger ones anymore nor follow to whatever your decision is okay? I cry all my life because of this fucking issue. It hurts seriously. And this is also part of my reason why I ran over to KL. Damn. You making me hate you even more everyday. I'm spoilt and been a very bad girl is all because of you. Thanks to you. Fuck life and fuck YOU!
Saturday, April 2, 2011 8:54 AM
day check; saturday. why should we work on saturdays when you can still sleep at home instead.
crap. but whatever it is, i love my pay. work as a QC wasn't that easy dougg. especially working with almost the foreigner workers. have to understand their language, accent. anything goes wrong we are the one who have to settle this and that. interview-ing of new workers isn't part of my jobscope but still i have to do it. fuckup. okay shutt.
pay is in, so its shopping time la. seriously serious, i miss going shopping. meeting my babygirl later on after work. gorgeous! yeayy-ness. :D
Labels: dont tell me im fallen
